ahead of me. It looks like I'm just gonna play on my own again and it looks like I'm starting from the very bottom (exactly where I started the year).
I'm feeling pretty awful right now about the way everything has happened over the last four months. Several things went wrong during the same period of time. I just simply shouldn't be in this situation, yet I am. It disgusts me a lot to think about it right now and the sooner I forget about it the better.
I'm not sure what my update status will be on the blog. I expected I would have shipped something significant by now but I haven't. And whats worse is I'm starting completely over.
To be completely honest, I feel really really sick about poker right now. I'm not 100% sure I'm gonna dive back into the micros full steam ahead like I have a couple times before. I know it will yield success and move me up again to midstakes but the excitement of all that is lacking in the moment.
As usual, with me, who knows how I'll feel at a certain point in time or why. I can't see myself doing anything other than poker (in terms of income) so it's not like I'm gonna quit. I just don't know if I'm gonna put in the necessary volume to crush micro and roll into low/midstakes. No matter what, meh, I'm not sure I care as much as I used to.
Hope all your Holidays have been going great so far. Merry Xmas in advance :)
2015 MTT Profit
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Sunday, December 5, 2010
Saturday, November 27, 2010
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Monday, November 22, 2010
Sundays
I've technically had three winning Sundays in a row though this last one hardly counts.
I finished 14th in the $55 500-cap tourney on Stars
9th in the $26 33k KO tourney (with 3600+ entrants and 14.6K to 1st place sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh)
and like 350th in the $640 FTOPS Main Event for 1.2K.
It was a Sunday with some major major potential and I capitalized on it just enough to come out +350 on the day. Ya. Wow. Phew. I really tore it up.
The one thing I feel right now is that I might be coming closer to being the player I want to be. Playing closer to the stakes I should be playing and possibly learning to deal with/accept the downswings that come with those stakes.
One thing I noted on my blog at the beginning of this year about last year (that I wanted to improve upon) was learning to focus more on maximizing my winnings rather than minimizing my losses. I've done better with it this year but I'm not really on the level I want to be on with that. I think I am getting closer though.
Well, even though these last three Sundays haven't even gotten me out of makeup they are a much-needed breath of fresh air into what was an almost lifeless corpse.
I finished 14th in the $55 500-cap tourney on Stars
9th in the $26 33k KO tourney (with 3600+ entrants and 14.6K to 1st place sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh)
and like 350th in the $640 FTOPS Main Event for 1.2K.
It was a Sunday with some major major potential and I capitalized on it just enough to come out +350 on the day. Ya. Wow. Phew. I really tore it up.
The one thing I feel right now is that I might be coming closer to being the player I want to be. Playing closer to the stakes I should be playing and possibly learning to deal with/accept the downswings that come with those stakes.
One thing I noted on my blog at the beginning of this year about last year (that I wanted to improve upon) was learning to focus more on maximizing my winnings rather than minimizing my losses. I've done better with it this year but I'm not really on the level I want to be on with that. I think I am getting closer though.
Well, even though these last three Sundays haven't even gotten me out of makeup they are a much-needed breath of fresh air into what was an almost lifeless corpse.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Much Needed Win
QQ < JJ deep in the $322 FTOPS and KK < A8o for a huge pot w/ four tables left in the 10r on Stars.
Coulda just as easily been all the way out of makeup today and then some. Whatever. Just gotta keep on grinding. For the first time ever I can say I've had two winning Sundays in a row.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Dent
I got 3rd in the morning $75 KO on Full Tilt today for $4,145. Being a Sunday, the prize pool was bloated with extra money (more than double it's usual 17.5K guarantee).
It took me nearly three months and 647 tourneys to accumulate 11.4k in makeup. I cleared 31% of that in just one tourney. Had I won this tourney (9k) I would have cleared just under 80% of makeup in one shot. This is the power of MTTs.
It took me nearly three months and 647 tourneys to accumulate 11.4k in makeup. I cleared 31% of that in just one tourney. Had I won this tourney (9k) I would have cleared just under 80% of makeup in one shot. This is the power of MTTs.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Post
I'm getting so so sick of updating my graph in the same ridiculous direction it's been going. I'm not trying to draw a mountain here ffs.
Sunday was a complete disaster. Standard.
Early morning Tuesday session yielded a final table in a $109 on stars with like 120 players. Obv I finished 9th. Tonight I got 8th in the $77 turbo 6max on stars.
It's so absurd how many 7th through 18th place finishes I've had. I'm so hungry for this nonsense to end.
I played more tourneys in October than I have any other month all year (except January when I was grinding the micro sched). October turned out to be the only month where I played 250+ tourneys and DIDN'T show a profit.
I'm really frustrated right now but I think this may all be for the best. If I'm going to make it in poker and in Vegas for at least the next few years then I need some harsh lessons and hard times to make me strong.
The only good news I've had recently was finding out tonight that the tea party kook running for Senator here in Nevada got her ass kicked. I'm not a huge fan of democrats anymore but I'll choose them any day of the week over people who want to close their eyes and ears and brains to the world around them and pretend like humans don't face major issues. Seems like politics right now is all about choosing the lesser of two evils. Idk, w/e, I'll figure it all out someday.
Sunday was a complete disaster. Standard.
Early morning Tuesday session yielded a final table in a $109 on stars with like 120 players. Obv I finished 9th. Tonight I got 8th in the $77 turbo 6max on stars.
It's so absurd how many 7th through 18th place finishes I've had. I'm so hungry for this nonsense to end.
I played more tourneys in October than I have any other month all year (except January when I was grinding the micro sched). October turned out to be the only month where I played 250+ tourneys and DIDN'T show a profit.
I'm really frustrated right now but I think this may all be for the best. If I'm going to make it in poker and in Vegas for at least the next few years then I need some harsh lessons and hard times to make me strong.
The only good news I've had recently was finding out tonight that the tea party kook running for Senator here in Nevada got her ass kicked. I'm not a huge fan of democrats anymore but I'll choose them any day of the week over people who want to close their eyes and ears and brains to the world around them and pretend like humans don't face major issues. Seems like politics right now is all about choosing the lesser of two evils. Idk, w/e, I'll figure it all out someday.
Friday, October 29, 2010
5th 30c
AQo < A10o b v b.
The sick thing is, even if I had held and gone on to win the tourney, I would have only cleared a third of my makeup.
Pretty eager to put October in the books. Even though that's really not a rational statement (as results aren't discriminate to what month it is) I can easily say this has been my most frustrating period ever in poker.
I can recall though how sweet this game is once the run-good sauce starts pouring on. Just a matter of time.
The sick thing is, even if I had held and gone on to win the tourney, I would have only cleared a third of my makeup.
Pretty eager to put October in the books. Even though that's really not a rational statement (as results aren't discriminate to what month it is) I can easily say this has been my most frustrating period ever in poker.
I can recall though how sweet this game is once the run-good sauce starts pouring on. Just a matter of time.
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